Still not over it

I know i said i would not be posting anything about my personal feelings on this blog, but i HAVE to get this off my chest because whoever decided that they should say something has now offended me. Since i don't know who it is and i only know they've read or read my blog, this is this only place that i can say this.
You've hurt my feelings, not that i believe that was your intention. However, i have a VERY hard time making friends, i have a big problem with trust and this completely makes me feel justified in having that trust issue. I now feel like i have disappointed certain people (after feeling like i was reprimanded) and of course trying my best to NOT disappoint people is also a flaw i have, i have no self esteem. I need approval to feel good about myself and having someone of an authorative figure in my life be disappointed in me (whether that person is disappointed or i just think they are doesn't change the outcome) does not make me feel good about myself.
I am not trying to make you feel guilty or bad (well, maybe just a tiny bit) because i know that you did not know these things about me and i assume that you would not want to make me feel even worse than i normally do already. I do a great job of beating myself up without the added help. :)
I feel as though one of the few friendships i was starting to develop was false and that i can't trust ANY of them now because one of them has to be the person that felt i wrote offensive things. So everyone else, please forgive me for pulling away, it's mostly for self preservation. Also, sorry for rambling, i felt whoever was offended deserved to know and i deserved to say how this has all made me feel.