Okay so i know absolutely nothing about blogging, but i figured that none of my old friends have any clue what's going on with me other than the stupid surveys on myspace that only seem to ask what i'm wearing every other question, soooo i am gonna try and start this thing!
SO everybody and their brother knows that Jimmy and i are trying to have a baby (okay who am i kidding, i am trying Jimmy just quit fighting me) and i pretty much think that we are pregnant, but i'm too chicken s&*% to try a test. Just as backround info: We thought we were pregnant 2 months in a row (July and Aug) and i mean we THOUGHT we were, symptoms and everything, but then nope and i'm just really scared that it's gonna happen again.
And these are the times that make me absolutely hate the fact that i moved to Texas. I feel like if i was still in Florida and Texas had never happened i would still have a best friend that i could talk to about my fears and now i am just lonely. Did i mention i hate Texas? Yup hate it.
Anyway that's all that's going on today. We are gonna take a P test tonight (okay i'm gonna pee, Jimmy's just gonna wait around) or tomorrow (see already i'm so scared that the evil thing will say no, even though my boobs are KILLING me and i will barf if i smell Derek's nasty clam chowder once more). We're also going to go on a date tonight, Jimmy's idea. I think he thinks that if i'm eating steak and cheesecake (okay maybe hate for Texas is a strong word, maybe i just loathe it because that cheesecake is AWESOME) and getting fatter i won't be crying about a BFN (sorry, for those not in the land of TTC-trying to conceive- that's Big Fat Negative). That's all i think i've depressed myself (and now you :p) enought!!
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